Happy Birthday, Mom! Love Always, Sam. (by YOmantha)
One thing about going to college is that you get to start over. For some, that is one of the best things ever! And for others, that is scary and horrible and stressful. I’m afraid that I was in the “others” category.
The whole concept of starting over was so hard for me because I was perfectly fine with how life was prior to going to college. High school was so good to me, and it was where people got to know me as me. Not just some typical smart, asian girl or the class president or…idk…fill in the blank aha. Everyone knew me so well by our Senior year, and by that time they had already seen every single one of my moods and every side of me (the good, the bad, and the ugly). lol
Going to college was kinda like me spending years painting some detailed, intricate portrait and then it being taken away and having a blank canvas handed to me.
But whether I liked it or not, I had to face that part of life. Life is full of transitions, and college is one of em. Surprisingly, this transition has been really easy so far. But it gets frustrating at times just because the people here in Oklahoma have A LOT more to learn about me. I just wish they could just know automatically so I don’t have to constantly explain myself. haha But building relationships from scratch and digging deeper into each other’s personalities and lives and pasts requires time. The people at VCS didn’t get to know me in a single day; it took a while. And so just like I did in high school, I’m going to have fun getting to know people and their stories, and meanwhile, they’re in for many surprises as they get to know me. haha
Guess a clean slate isn’t so bad after all.
Oh boy. Distance is pretty tough, BUT I expected it to be a lot harder. Everyone treats distance as if it’s a matter of life and death. Granted, I can see why. But I’ve learned that distance means nothing when you really care about someone. I mean…don’t get me wrong, distance CAN change things. And it IS difficult. However, it’s not as bad as people say it is…for me at least.
With my family…
Things have been really great! I’m so happy that nothing has changed between me and them. It’s weird that I’m no longer “under their roof”. And I know that their lives don’t stop just because I’m gone. So it was natural for me to fear that with all these changes that’s been happening, my relationships would change as well. But thankfully, nothing has changed. Not a single thing. It’s a little tough at times because I get busy and it’s hard to give them play by plays of my life in Oklahoma. But luckily, they’re understanding. I freaking love my family. Wouldn’t be the person I am today without them.
With my bestfriend…
People thought that’d we’d lose contact within the first couple of weeks and that we’d stop being best friends. What they don’t understand is that Kristen isn’t just some high school best friend that was meant to be in my life for that short period of time. She’s like a sister to me and that’s not gonna change. We be provin everyone wrong. (;
With my close friends…
I don’t talk to them as much as I’d like to, but when we do have the chance to talk it’s like no time has passed. It’s so nice to hear their updates and catch up with them. Like Cass said, no matter how many new friends I make in Oklahoma…it’s not “replacing”; it’s “adding”. haha
With my former romantic interest…
I guess the word “former” says it all. They say that “distance makes the heart grow fonder”. But in my case…that’s not really how it played out. But I can say with complete confidence that what did play out was for the best. And I don’t blame distance for what happened; distance was just a pain in the butt through it all. lol
All in all, being in Oklahoma has shown me who really cares about me and who will always be there no matter how many miles are between us. And I am so blessed for all of those people. We bouta show distance who’s boss. Am I right or am I right? (;
John Steinbeck (via penseesduchoeur)